Bad Day
Where is the moment we need at the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on
You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on
Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day
Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on
You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
(Oh.. Holiday..)
Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong
(yeah...)
So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day
*They say a picture is worth a thousand words, and I have to say I agree.
I have plenty of days where things seem to turn out right & everything is going great...but today was not one of those days. Today was something of a disaster & a reminder that with each passing year (and each new child) I am becoming the old fuddy-duddy parent I swore I would never become. Yes, today was one of THOSE days! You know the kind of day I'm talking about. The one where you hear your own parents voice ringing in your ears as you scream timeless threats at your children like...."if you hit your sister one more time, buddy, it's gonna be the last thing you do today!.....
Today I found myself daydreaming about a magical "pause" button for my children. One that would freeze them mid-whine and suspend the insanity I live in for just a moment. Just long enough for me to catch my breath, or maybe long enough for me to take a bathroom break by myself (hey, a mom can dream). Tonight I told Jonathan that I want to go back to work....and more than just a little piece of me really means that.
I love all of my children dearly & I know that what I'm doing right now has great value. With that in mind, I console myself with the fact that "this too shall pass". However, I think it may be time for me to try to put more than just ONE little finger back into the "grown-up" world. You know things are getting pretty bleak when you dream about waiting tables on the side...just for fun. Oh, help me!
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Oh Amber! I know how you feel. Today I was hollering at my kids for the hundredth time and it hit me that I was sick of my own voice. I thought "If I hear that sound in my voice again today. . .I'm getting on my own nerves." I really think I can understand why my kids tune me out because of the way I sound.
I told Tom the other day I was thinking of wanting to go back to work. I really don't want to. I really don't see how I even could. I just need some sanity time. I do understand exactly what you are saying. This summer is good but I feel the time dragging and my nerves sagging.
So hang in there! Take it easy. Make a special pot of coffee and sit and sip awhile. I don't have any advice for you except to say that you are not alone. You are not insane. Your doing eternity a favor by being home with those precious kids! We both are.
I read this verse again today. It's one of my favorites. Since we have young we can cling to it and ask him to carry our little lambs for awhile and gently lead us.
Isa 40:11 - He tends his flock like a shepherd: He gathers the lambs in his arms and carries them close to his heart; he gently leads those that have young.
Thanks, Karen! I know you understand just what I'm talking about. I don't mean to sound like I don't want to be a stay-at-home mommy, it's just therapudic to "vent" about my struggles sometimes.
Thanks for the verse.Yesterday I thought of Hagar & how she called God El Roi..."The God Who Sees Me".
Amber, I totally understand. I have literally physically shook at times wishing I could run away cuz the stress level was almost more than I could bear. Then people go and make comments that make me feel that they don't realize how hard staying at home and raising children is, then I feel under-appreciated by the whole world!
What a great thing to think on! God is the God who sees even when no one else does!
Working would probably be much easier at times. You'd come home tired but it's a different kind of tired. Hang in there! We are sooo blessed to have husbands that sacrifice financial freedom so we can follow our hearts and be with our babies full time.
Thankfully over the last eight years of raising four daughters, there's been more good days than bad! But, each day completely wears me out!!!
OH and Amber, I failed to mention that you are an awesome mother. Truly you're a great example for all of us. Chandler is very very blessed!
OH and Amber, I failed to mention that you are an awesome mother. Truly you're a great example for all of us. Chandler is very very blessed!
Aww, Jules, you are so sweet! Thankfully this week is starting off a little better than last week. Even Chandler's Developmental Therapist commented on how good things went today! You know it really is a good day when the behavior specialist says something like that :-).
Hey, thanks Julie! It's nice to know that other women BESIDES our wives think what we do is worth it! I'd rather have a family raised properly than an extra 50 bucks at the end of the month! It's worth it.
$50!!!!! Oh, Sweetie, you know I could never make that kind of money in a months time...but thanks for thinking so highly of me-LOL!
You just wait, Pumpkin, someday I'll be bringing in a solid $4.25 an hour. Then we can get that above-ground pool we always talk about, and maybe even a couple of those fancy garbage cans for the garage! Of course we will know we've "arrived" the day we bring home our very own steam cleaner...that's the true measure of success!!!
*Tom, I really hope you are reading this :-)
Yes, somehow we've arrived now that we have the steam-cleaner. Sure would like those fancy trash cans, though! :)
Amber,I was just showing your blog uncle Adam and commenting on what a great blog that you have.The pictures are great!!Hopefully,I can be as diligent w/ updating mine like yours and taking better pictures!!
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